Light Bulb!!!!!

So...Alex (turberville) is dating Emily Bruce... yeah... i hate just typing it. It really made me upset. But I've had a lot of time to think while I've been down here. And here's what I've figured out: Alex is about as close to my dream guy as I'm going to get in Butler, probably in the USA. But just because he's my dream guy, that doesn't mean I love him. Alex never made me genuinely happy. (in any way at all) And that means that I don't love him like I thought I did. The guy in our school who makes me the happiest, and who I love to spend time with the most... is Khalil. I haven't stopped thinking about him since getting down here, and besides my girls, he's been the person I miss the most. Over this past school year, he has become such a huge part of my life. I don't know how, and I don't know when, but somewhere along the line I fell for him. Hard. And I didn't even realize it. Well...I knew I liked him. But until now, I never realized how much. I know that may sound kinda weird, but it's true. I've said before that there is part of me that will always like Alex... and I still think that's true... but maybe its time I get my mind off him, and start seeing whats right in front of my face... BUT WAIT!!! Khalil has a girlfriend! Fantastic... Oh, hello Connor... :) Haha, anyways... Sorry for the uselessness of this post, I needed to vent this somehow, and I think this was the best way to do it. :) ~~LGKavanagh~~ <3BKkhchemnrbt<3